tmi

i used to think that some things where tmi- too much information, like describing bodily functions. i didn't like the smell of urine in preschool classrooms. well this is all part of my life now. the yucky kiddie bathroom. i have no idea what they do in there. but it needs to be cleaned every 20 minutes. i am happy though that the bathroom is used! i don't have to be so involved in there business. ok so there is tushy wiping. i would rather that than change a million diapers. the worst thing is either potty training or dealing with a toddler who likes to rip off his diaper and play with the contents. i never thought that i would yell don't shmear your sisters #2! or don't play with your own! if i have to deal with random stools and wet areas i might as well be potty training.

potty training isn't for the faint hearted. pull ups didn't really work for me. they are good in the beginning. like if dd decided that she wanted to try to use the toilet when we were out of the house. i could just pull it up and down. in the house i tried to her the child go bottomless. it did the trick. and the child made some interesting tricks on the way of being potty trained. i got used to puddles and cute little piles that were easy to clean. if i have to deal with it, it might as well be easy to clean! i used to think that my child had to be ready to train. it dragged out with y he winded up training himself when he was 3 years old and 3 months. he knew where the potty was and he decided to use it. finally! i tried getting him trained by 3 lol! not fun. accident after accident. he was trained at home for #1 but not for 2. also at gan he was trained for #1. i was so used to washing underwear in the sink that i considered using cloth diapers. dh talked me out of it. well any way i decided to go back to diapers for y. so he trained himself when he got older.

with d i knew that she was ready she really wanted to use the bathroom. but i knew that she would have problems in camp, so i waited until she was home in the summer. we had potty training boot camp. it wasn't only for her. dh and i had to learn elimination communication. i never thought that i could be so in tune with a child. i learned when she needed to be taken to the bathroom. i also learned what she needed to do there. we still have to do this. you need to go go! ok i'll take you. i wish i figures out how to train her for the night. a diaper a day isn't the end of the world. i think that i will buy a toy and tell her that she will get if if she is dry for a week. it worked for y.

i never thought that i would take an interest in what was made in a diaper, or out of it. dh and i discuss the contents of it. not to be gross but i want to know if the baby is sick. or if it was a corny diaper. red velvet cake makes interesting diapers.

i did it!

i don't know why i have such a fear of taking everyone out at the same time. i did it when there was only 3 now instead of 1 kid in the stroller i have 2. i walked almost every day. i went to Manhattan- ok i had to dh needed something so i was forced to go. no not that way. i was given the push that i needed to attempt to get out of the house. no - mental push. lol! i have a mental block thinking that it will be hard or that i don't have the energy to go somewhere. but i know that i am capable of doing it. i always walk home. ok so i cheat and take a taxi when i could have walked. but then i justify it if i walked it would take 30 minutes and then everything would be over. taking a taxi only takes 5 minutes.

the kids thought that there was school today so y picked out his clothes and got dressed. d also wanted to get dressed. it made my life easier i only had 2 left to get dressed. my plan was to go get ice cream and buy a birthday present for an upershernish that we are iy'h going to go to tomorrow. y said can we to the museum? hm. let me think about that why not? i was thinking about trying it. i took the kids to the park and shopping on the avenue. why don't we try it? the kids walked really nicely over there, no complaining or kvechting.

they said there would be kosher food in the cafeteria. last time i went they did have food. i brought along some cookies and crakers. oops they didn't have anything substantial to eat. i bought them chips and a banana and pepsi. they were really happy with that.

everything started out ok. they listened to me. stay as a group no running off.... we went around the exihbits. i really should take my 2 yearold during the week. he would love it! my baby got kvechty he wanted to sleep. i had to run after d. she did not want to listen, then y started to not listen so well. i tried to stick it out but then i decided that the museum was closing soon. i might as well go home. they had to learn how to listen. they walked home. i told them that if we walked home nicely they would get a treat. nicely means holding on to the stroller, no complaining, no dawdling. they all got a treat.

we did it!

freedom

freedom, well sort of. this past sunday dh and i decided to split up. i took the 2 oldest kids to the Manhattan children's museum and dh took the baby and toddler to a wine and cheese tasting.
it was nice to leave the house without a stroller, not to worry about taking a bus; i have to fold my stroller and make sure that my baby can stand up, not walk away, make it up the stairs, get everything on the bus without harming any bystanders and pay, and not lose the metro card. so with 2 big kids its a mechaya! i just have to hold their hands! thank g-d dh is very into the kids being able to walk. if you are over 3 you have to learn how to walk. and no stroller if you are older.
my kids loved the subway, that was one of the highlights of the trip! we made it to the museum they had a great time. we were closer to another subway stop so we went the other direction. i saw a gymboree! i saw something online that i wanted to get. there was a sale going on. 30% off it was only online or if you printed out a coupon. since i joined the *printer of the month club. i didn't have a printer i went in the store to check it out. there was a video in the back. y was really happy! i was happy that my kids could sit down and be occupied and not whine about life. the store was happy, i would be spending money there now that i could shop in peace and quiet! i got 3 matching vests and a shirt and tights! score everything turned out to be the original price of one vest! i love shopping! dd fell asleep in the store i had to hold her while i paid. she woke up afterward.
we got some hair things for dd! yay! she lets me put things in her hair now! she doesn't scream like i'm trying to find out where the wmds are. i could work for gitmo according to her. wow me singing and brushing her hair it could make a 3 year old lose it. with a little patience -3 years- she now lets me make her into a pretty princes, and not look like a ragamuffin. we had a great time in the store. y enjoyed picking things out for his sister. lol! he has good taste.
we walked 10 blocks to another subway stop. the kids liked walking, i enjoyed walking down the uws. i finally go to the stage that i could leave the house and go where i want! ok so maybe not exactly what i want. but close enough!
dh took the other 2 to a wine and cheese tasting. he got to taste a lot of nice wine, and the 2 year old enjoyed the cheese and crackers.

* we bought a printer y broke it after a week or so. we bought another printer, it lasted a day. he went to zeide, he almost broke that printer. so i call it printer of the month club

american idol

i don't really watch american idol. i only watch the reruns of the tryouts. it is really funny to watch the people who think that they have the greatest voices and they do not. where was their family? how come they were allowed to humiliate themselves? having an ego is good, but these people really thought that they can be the next kelly clarkson. i do not have that problem. i have my very own simon and paula. any time i try to sing my kids tell me, mommy please stop! no! don't sing! ok. ok. i get the point. i will not try out for american idol.

music

music can be a wonderful thing it can enhance your life. or it can ruin you day. right now it is sefira where i can't listen to music, b/c we are mourning the 24,000 students of rabbi akiva who passed away b/c of lack of ahavas yisroel. so no life music or anything with instruments. i listen to acapella music. it sounds really good i'm enjoying the music too much! it sounds so good. shouldn't sefira be hard? that we should remember what happened? but music makes such a difference it puts cranky kids into to a better mood- also a cranky mommy!-

music can ruin your day or night if its not your own. my neighbors put on the most annoying music, sreachy country music whenever i want to take a nap. last night someone decided that 1-5 am was a really good time for a loud party. ahhh! i went to bed early thinking that i will get a good nights sleep. yeah right. i thought about calling 311 but i couldn't tell where the music was coming from. i was tempted to get dressed and go through the building to see where it came from, but then i realised that i share a courtyard with another building. thank g-d i fell asleep, and i slept in!

precious moments

precious moments, what else can i call it? my baby is asleep on me now. i can't get anything done. i need to put the laundry away, make the beds, cook supper, clean the house...... i look at pictures of my oldest who is 5! wow time flew by so fast, where did my baby go? who is this kid? how do i know you? i look at my daughter, where is my baby? your going to be 4 in the summer? i miss my baby girl. well baby not the colic and the screaming and tantrums. i like who she is now. there is a light at the end of the tunnel of difficult babies and toddlers. - i hope that she will be an easy teenager, please G-d!-

i was in survival mode let us end the day in one piece! every moment felt like eternity, and also flashed by. i'm glad that i can redo it all again. i am trying to be in the moment, to realize that time can go by so fast. even though it feels like its really hard now. i will miss it. i will have many years where i will be able to get everything done, to have a perfect house with cooked suppers everynight. but this moment i will not be able to get back again. sooner than i think my baby will be a grown up.

5, almost

WOW y is 5! the time flew! i remember when he was supposed to come. he took his time. a day before i was going to be induced he started to make his way out. it took a pretty long time for it to be over. i saw his blond hair and blue eyes, i thought that there was a mistake. me, have a child with blond hair and blue eyes? weird. well i got to know y. he looks like me. well the male version of me. time really went by fast. h used to be a blob that cried and wanted to eat. now he is a person who cries and wants to eat. he also can say what is on his mind. happy birthday y!